Perfectionism

Headspace coming at me with some REAL TALK this week.

I am a perfectionist to my very core. On the outside this means that I appear to be a person who has my whole life pulled together, with a neat little bow on top. It looks like limitless motivation to reach my goals, to-do lists getting check check checked day after day, #winning at life with ease.

On the inside, it looks a bit like chaos. Mind racing every moment of every day, anticipating my next move, not letting anything slip through the cracks. But things do slip through the cracks — the main one for me being actual downtime. My brain never really turns off, like a little rabbit on speed. It’s. Exhausting.

I don’t have solutions yet (I’m working on it), but just the awareness of it is important. I’ve been trying to meditate regularly, but even if I miss a bunch of days I appreciate these little messages to get myself thinking. 💭